“And he sendeth forth two of his disciples, and saith unto them, Go ye into the city, and there shall meet you a man bearing a pitcher of water: follow him.” ~Mark 14:13
Intricate. Precise. Exact. Intentional. Those are only a few words that I can think of to describe God’s modus operandi, or His mode of operation — His “M.O.”. God’s way of doing things are never coincidental. In fact, I do not believe in coincidences. Every thing happens for a reason, and with God, this is most true.
I am praising and thanking God right now for the little things that seemed so insignificant to me. The things that He’s allowed me to do that I thought nothing of. For He has placed me in scenarios and situations whereas I’ve had to use skills that I didn’t even know I had, and I wondered why He put me in these situations. A little of this, a little of that, all to hone and polish something He put in me.
I see today how He has begun to weave all of these little things together in order for me to us for a greater purpose. Wow! Isn’t that so like God?
Review Mark 14:13 above. Jesus gives instructions to two of the disciples to locate the upper room where they are to prepare for the passover meal. The Last Supper. Jesus tells them exactly what they will see and how they will know they are in the right place. What He says doesn’t seem all that remarkable or odd. But it is. Actually, He said something highly significant. That is that they would find a man carrying water in a pitcher. Or a jug. Again, seemingly insignificant. But if you understand the customs or culture of that time, you would find it odd. Men either did not carry water, or if they did, they did not bear it in pitchers. Women did. Men would tote water in skins.
So, naturally, this man carrying a pitcher of water — a seemingly small detail — was yet a very precise and intentional act of God!
The scripture doesn’t tell us, but I do wonder why this man toted his water in a pitcher? I am sure that it was a so-called coincidence, and even he probably wondered why he did it. Perhaps a skin wasn’t available. Perhaps a woman wasn’t available to bring the water. Perhaps initially there was not a need for water. There are numerous possibilities and dynamics to this, but the bottomline is that it was necessary for this man to be carrying water in a pitcher at that exact moment as a sign to the disciples.
Why was it important for this to happen? This was yet another action of God to show that Jesus Christ knows all. He was/is not just a “good man”. He is divine, He is Lord, He is the Savior. Yet another opportunity for the disciples to receive and accept Him. Even then, they did not fully know who He was.
God’s M.O. has not changed. He is still performing miracles and doing the impossible today. He still uses the ordinary to do extraordinary things. He still shows us signs of His power and greatness. He still takes little and turns it into much. He still builds and weaves the most intricate details of our lives into something significant.
Don’t take for granted the small things that occur in your life. You don’t have to think that God is not active or present in your life because you may not see anything spectactular (according to you). Some of those little incidences are catalysts for great things.
Trust God in all ways. Don’t dismiss what you may not understand. Trust Him!
Blessings!
Carla Y. Nix
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Sunday, December 28, 2008
An Open Letter - Dear You, Part 1
This open letter is the result of a conversation I had in my head. It is a conversation that I imagined having with someone who plays a big role in the dysfunction of a precious family I know. Although the family’s situation is different than my own, I can relate to the position the wife of this family is in. Only because my past experience, though not the same, brought the same feelings of pain, hurt, and anger. Out of those negative feelings, I did write my own letter at the time (years ago). God has delivered me from such a place in life, but it does hurt me when others go through what I went through, or what this family goes through today.
As I had the conversation in my head, I thought it best to write it out and pen it here. I truly believe that many can relate, and perhaps, some could very well be the target of the words I’m about to express.
Dear You,
Yes you. You, the woman who seem to have no shame whatsoever. What is your problem?
I am very angry because of your actions. But what angers me even more is the fact that you don’t think enough of yourself nor do you have any pride. It hurts me to know that you are a partner in crime with the demise of a family, but it kills me inside because you are also the culprit in destroying your own life. Worse, you are painting a very ugly picture for your daughters of what a beautiful strong woman is.
Why do you care so little about yourself that you would be involved with a married man? What makes you not value yourself to the point that you are willing to steal whatever time you can from a man who is obviously not capable of showing true love and commitment? Why are you wrapped up with someone who is not honest nor has respect for the mother of his children? What makes this man so appealing to you? Why do you not know that you deserve better?
You’ve played footsy with this man for years. He has been told a number of times that he is free to leave to be with you solely. But, he hasn’t done it. He can’t do it. He obviously does not hold you in high enough esteem to want to be with you fully. He will not leave his wife for you, and if he does one day, do you believe that he would be faithful to you? He never has been.
Why do you settle for that? And you wonder why God hasn’t shown favor towards you. Why should He when you are not living as you should? Please don’t think that your life is a secret from the Lord. Remember the woman at the well who met Jesus? The woman living in shame? Jesus, without hesitation, let her know that the man that she was with now was not her husband. I hope that you know that Jesus knows the same about you today. Most of all, I hope you know that Jesus can deliver you as well, just as He did this Samaritan woman.
I should be angry with you because you are affecting a great family that I love dearly. I guess I am. But, I am truly devastated that you, my sister, are ruining your own life. I cannot say enough that you deserve so much better, but you are limiting yourself because you choose to waddle with this man.
You choose to be the other woman. Shouldn’t you be the only woman?
Carla Y. Nix
As I had the conversation in my head, I thought it best to write it out and pen it here. I truly believe that many can relate, and perhaps, some could very well be the target of the words I’m about to express.
Dear You,
Yes you. You, the woman who seem to have no shame whatsoever. What is your problem?
I am very angry because of your actions. But what angers me even more is the fact that you don’t think enough of yourself nor do you have any pride. It hurts me to know that you are a partner in crime with the demise of a family, but it kills me inside because you are also the culprit in destroying your own life. Worse, you are painting a very ugly picture for your daughters of what a beautiful strong woman is.
Why do you care so little about yourself that you would be involved with a married man? What makes you not value yourself to the point that you are willing to steal whatever time you can from a man who is obviously not capable of showing true love and commitment? Why are you wrapped up with someone who is not honest nor has respect for the mother of his children? What makes this man so appealing to you? Why do you not know that you deserve better?
You’ve played footsy with this man for years. He has been told a number of times that he is free to leave to be with you solely. But, he hasn’t done it. He can’t do it. He obviously does not hold you in high enough esteem to want to be with you fully. He will not leave his wife for you, and if he does one day, do you believe that he would be faithful to you? He never has been.
Why do you settle for that? And you wonder why God hasn’t shown favor towards you. Why should He when you are not living as you should? Please don’t think that your life is a secret from the Lord. Remember the woman at the well who met Jesus? The woman living in shame? Jesus, without hesitation, let her know that the man that she was with now was not her husband. I hope that you know that Jesus knows the same about you today. Most of all, I hope you know that Jesus can deliver you as well, just as He did this Samaritan woman.
I should be angry with you because you are affecting a great family that I love dearly. I guess I am. But, I am truly devastated that you, my sister, are ruining your own life. I cannot say enough that you deserve so much better, but you are limiting yourself because you choose to waddle with this man.
You choose to be the other woman. Shouldn’t you be the only woman?
Carla Y. Nix
Saturday, December 27, 2008
Holiday Goodies
I am just writing to send a little support and encouragement to my fellow diabetics. I will have to admit that this is a most difficult time for me simply because I have not yet conquered the desire and taste for sweets. I often share my struggles with this, and Christmas doesn't make it any easier.
I did some baking. We actually baked three cakes for Christmas. But you know what? I am so proud of myself because I've done well with maintaining good glucose readings. I have eaten in moderation. Yes, I've eaten some cake, but I did not go crazy with it. That's improvement for me.
I've eaten in moderation the big meal I cooked. We even went to my mother-in-law's on Christmas day and she sho 'nuff cooked for an army. But, I didn't eat like a platoon. I ate just a little bit of this and that, and did not feel the need to eat every thing.
It is a struggle. I would love to reach a point where I can say that I have no desire for sweets. Food-wise, I handle much better. The starches and carbohydrates don't call my name as cake and cookies do!
Carla Y. Nix
I did some baking. We actually baked three cakes for Christmas. But you know what? I am so proud of myself because I've done well with maintaining good glucose readings. I have eaten in moderation. Yes, I've eaten some cake, but I did not go crazy with it. That's improvement for me.
I've eaten in moderation the big meal I cooked. We even went to my mother-in-law's on Christmas day and she sho 'nuff cooked for an army. But, I didn't eat like a platoon. I ate just a little bit of this and that, and did not feel the need to eat every thing.
It is a struggle. I would love to reach a point where I can say that I have no desire for sweets. Food-wise, I handle much better. The starches and carbohydrates don't call my name as cake and cookies do!
Carla Y. Nix
When Christmas Isn't Merry
As I take some time to write this on Christmas Eve, I realize that many people will go to bed tonight with lonely and hurt hearts. It is after 11:00 pm and the sounds of my family are still echoing throughout the house. I spent the evening cooking and baking, and my daughter Tiffanie helped me (somewhat). Anaiah tried to get us all to play some games with her. Jerry enjoyed watching television, laughing at funny movies, for he has a rare night off. Then, they all got a taste of tomorrow’s dinner tonight! They also dug into to the cakes that were baked. I fussed at them, with love.
I then sat down and called my big brother Michael to check on him and his family. They’re having some struggles right now, but they will be okay. Yesterday I talked to my baby brother Ira. He is doing well. My son called the other night. I didn’t get to talk to him because I was asleep — wasn’t feeling well with a nasty cold — but he talked to his sisters. I am sure I’ll talk to him in the morning.
This is probably the “worse” Christmas for us from a financial standpoint. This is truly a lean Christmas for us, yet it is still a very joyful time. And that is what this blog is about. We may not have a lot of things, but we are happy. We were not able to purchase much of anything as far as gifts, but we are happy. For me, just having my family is all that I need.
Yet I realize, again, that someone else is going to bed tonight very sad. Many are dealing with broken hearts. Loneliness. I know personally of two families who just buried loved ones this week! I personally know of dear friends who lost loved ones earlier this year and this will be their first Christmas without them. And then there are still some whose losses were not as recent, but the void felt from the loss of their loved one is still there.
I know that there is someone who is at home alone. Unlike me, they may not have a family member or friend to call, just to check on them. And then of course there are the thousands of military families who have loved ones serving right now in Iraq, or other war zones, or any other place away from home.
Christmas should be a time of rejoicing, joy, and hope. Yet, it is for many a time of depression and hopelessness.
My thoughts are with you and I lift you in prayer asking God to renew your hope, give you strength, and overshadow you with joy. See, it is not about gifts. If it were, then many people would be happy. Some receive an abundance of gifts. Many are able to give bountiful gifts. Yet, they are sad and depressed inside.
I beg of you to look up. Lift up your head. Reach out to God and allow Him to fill you with His love. Allow Him to fill that void that was left by someone you hold dear. I personally know that it is not easy and it hurts. When my own mother died, it was just a few months before Christmas. That first Thanksgiving and Christmas without her was so very hard. It felt as though I would not get through it, but you know what? I did. And you will too. Cry if you must, but wipe those tears soon and continue living your life. You must!
If you’re unhappy for other reasons, you too can still lift your head. I am also praying for you.
Feel free to write me if you need someone to talk to. If you desire prayer, just ask. If you just need to vent, please do so. If you need a virtual hug, you got it!
Email me: carlanix1@aol.com
Merry Christmas!
Blessings,
Carla Y. Nix
I then sat down and called my big brother Michael to check on him and his family. They’re having some struggles right now, but they will be okay. Yesterday I talked to my baby brother Ira. He is doing well. My son called the other night. I didn’t get to talk to him because I was asleep — wasn’t feeling well with a nasty cold — but he talked to his sisters. I am sure I’ll talk to him in the morning.
This is probably the “worse” Christmas for us from a financial standpoint. This is truly a lean Christmas for us, yet it is still a very joyful time. And that is what this blog is about. We may not have a lot of things, but we are happy. We were not able to purchase much of anything as far as gifts, but we are happy. For me, just having my family is all that I need.
Yet I realize, again, that someone else is going to bed tonight very sad. Many are dealing with broken hearts. Loneliness. I know personally of two families who just buried loved ones this week! I personally know of dear friends who lost loved ones earlier this year and this will be their first Christmas without them. And then there are still some whose losses were not as recent, but the void felt from the loss of their loved one is still there.
I know that there is someone who is at home alone. Unlike me, they may not have a family member or friend to call, just to check on them. And then of course there are the thousands of military families who have loved ones serving right now in Iraq, or other war zones, or any other place away from home.
Christmas should be a time of rejoicing, joy, and hope. Yet, it is for many a time of depression and hopelessness.
My thoughts are with you and I lift you in prayer asking God to renew your hope, give you strength, and overshadow you with joy. See, it is not about gifts. If it were, then many people would be happy. Some receive an abundance of gifts. Many are able to give bountiful gifts. Yet, they are sad and depressed inside.
I beg of you to look up. Lift up your head. Reach out to God and allow Him to fill you with His love. Allow Him to fill that void that was left by someone you hold dear. I personally know that it is not easy and it hurts. When my own mother died, it was just a few months before Christmas. That first Thanksgiving and Christmas without her was so very hard. It felt as though I would not get through it, but you know what? I did. And you will too. Cry if you must, but wipe those tears soon and continue living your life. You must!
If you’re unhappy for other reasons, you too can still lift your head. I am also praying for you.
Feel free to write me if you need someone to talk to. If you desire prayer, just ask. If you just need to vent, please do so. If you need a virtual hug, you got it!
Email me: carlanix1@aol.com
Merry Christmas!
Blessings,
Carla Y. Nix
Everyone who is WITH you isn't FOR you!
If you read any one of the three Synoptic Gospel writing accounts (Matthew, Mark, and Luke), you will find that there was always a large following of Jesus Christ. In most cases, they were referred to as the “multitude”. There were large crowds of people. Most followed Jesus for good reason. They wanted to learn more of Him, they wanted to be blessed, healed, delivered, forgiven. They wanted everything that we today want from Jesus.
Yet, everyone in the crowd was not there for pure and innocent reasons. The multitude was filtered with diversity, nay sayers, enemies, and those who wanted to destroy Him.
Why should life be any different for us?
From the time of Jesus’ birth, His life was in danger. Remember the three wise men? Well, they weren’t His enemies, but satan tried to use them to bring harm to Him (Matthew 2:7-20). Actually, it was King Herod who wanted to kill Jesus. Needless to say, adversity and danger followed Jesus from the beginning.
This adversity and danger threatened to stop the mission that Jesus was born to fulfill. You and I are going to be faced with opposition and even people in our lives who do not mean us any good. Sometimes we relish the idea that we know a lot of people. We become thrilled that so many people like us. We think that we are important because we have a large following. I’m here to warn you. Don’t get too happy about that.
Again, as our example, is Jesus. Within the crowds were always the agonizers. The Pharisees and Saducees were always there listening, watching, stalking, questioning — just trying to trap Jesus. Always trying to catch Him doing or saying something that they considered wrong or blasphemous.
Jesus never argued. He always kept His cool. He knew what He was about and the work that He had to do. As He said even to His mother, He was about His Father’s business.
Let me share something that made me write this today. I’ve known for awhile that here online, people were following me, searching me, and looking for information about me. I knew it because I receive the alerts and notices whenever something about me is being searched. Well, I don’t worry much about it, as I know that’s how it is when you put yourself out there. But I was in conversation with someone on a personal business matter. I was eventually told that they have gathered information on me (no surprise to me), and they went on to tell me what they’ve gathered. They said that they know of my website, etc. Okay, all of that is public, so that again was no surprise to me. Then the person told me that they have me listed as an “evangelist”. Now THAT shocked me because I have NEVER listed anywhere that I am an evengelist. In fact, I don’t hold any title to my name. I have not attached “evangelist” to my work. I personally do not like titles and don’t feel the need to carry one. I know who I am and the work that I am called to do. I just do it. I am simply Carla Y. Nix.
When the person told me that, for a moment, I felt like Jesus. By that, I mean, I wanted to say to them, as Jesus said to His accusers, “That’s what YOU say”.
My point is that people will follow you with hidden agendas, mean you no good, and then try to decide who and what you are. I don’t have time to play games. I would never hang around a person whom I couldn’t be FOR. I would never follow you if I didn’t believe in you. I would not act as a friend only to gain something from you. This is what people do all of the time. So don’t allow the crowd, or the multitude, or the connections, or the followers, or your friends list, or even the subscribers, to fool you. Appreciate the support and encouragement that you may receive, but realize what you are doing and why you’re doing it. Stay true to your mission and your calling. Don’t allow distractors to deter you.
Stay true to yourself. Stay true to your mission. And most of all, stay true to God.
Blessings!
Carla Y. Nix
Yet, everyone in the crowd was not there for pure and innocent reasons. The multitude was filtered with diversity, nay sayers, enemies, and those who wanted to destroy Him.
Why should life be any different for us?
From the time of Jesus’ birth, His life was in danger. Remember the three wise men? Well, they weren’t His enemies, but satan tried to use them to bring harm to Him (Matthew 2:7-20). Actually, it was King Herod who wanted to kill Jesus. Needless to say, adversity and danger followed Jesus from the beginning.
This adversity and danger threatened to stop the mission that Jesus was born to fulfill. You and I are going to be faced with opposition and even people in our lives who do not mean us any good. Sometimes we relish the idea that we know a lot of people. We become thrilled that so many people like us. We think that we are important because we have a large following. I’m here to warn you. Don’t get too happy about that.
Again, as our example, is Jesus. Within the crowds were always the agonizers. The Pharisees and Saducees were always there listening, watching, stalking, questioning — just trying to trap Jesus. Always trying to catch Him doing or saying something that they considered wrong or blasphemous.
Jesus never argued. He always kept His cool. He knew what He was about and the work that He had to do. As He said even to His mother, He was about His Father’s business.
Let me share something that made me write this today. I’ve known for awhile that here online, people were following me, searching me, and looking for information about me. I knew it because I receive the alerts and notices whenever something about me is being searched. Well, I don’t worry much about it, as I know that’s how it is when you put yourself out there. But I was in conversation with someone on a personal business matter. I was eventually told that they have gathered information on me (no surprise to me), and they went on to tell me what they’ve gathered. They said that they know of my website, etc. Okay, all of that is public, so that again was no surprise to me. Then the person told me that they have me listed as an “evangelist”. Now THAT shocked me because I have NEVER listed anywhere that I am an evengelist. In fact, I don’t hold any title to my name. I have not attached “evangelist” to my work. I personally do not like titles and don’t feel the need to carry one. I know who I am and the work that I am called to do. I just do it. I am simply Carla Y. Nix.
When the person told me that, for a moment, I felt like Jesus. By that, I mean, I wanted to say to them, as Jesus said to His accusers, “That’s what YOU say”.
My point is that people will follow you with hidden agendas, mean you no good, and then try to decide who and what you are. I don’t have time to play games. I would never hang around a person whom I couldn’t be FOR. I would never follow you if I didn’t believe in you. I would not act as a friend only to gain something from you. This is what people do all of the time. So don’t allow the crowd, or the multitude, or the connections, or the followers, or your friends list, or even the subscribers, to fool you. Appreciate the support and encouragement that you may receive, but realize what you are doing and why you’re doing it. Stay true to your mission and your calling. Don’t allow distractors to deter you.
Stay true to yourself. Stay true to your mission. And most of all, stay true to God.
Blessings!
Carla Y. Nix
Friday, December 19, 2008
LIFE SHOULD BE LIVED
It has been a rollercoast of emotions this week for me. It has gotten so that I don’t know what to expect each day. So far, after arising in good spirits, I have received news of two deaths. One of my friends, Michael Sears, and the other of Mrs. Jones who is part of my husband’s family. All very sad. My prayers remain with the Sears and Jones families.
On the other hand, I’m feeling happy because God is blessing me in ministry. Allowing me to be a blessing and impacting others in a positive way. Allowing His light to shine through me. God is using me as His vessel, as His instrument. This is all that I desire in life. It really is. I don’t ask for much. I don’t need much. I just want to be a blessing.
I am looking forward to even more great things in the new year. God has already given me my theme as He does for each year.
My theme for the new year:
God’s own time, not mine, in 2009
I’m expecting great things in 2009 because God has assured me that He has some remarkable things in store for my husband and I in 2009. But, He is in control. He is ordering our steps. He is opening the doors. He is leading the way. He has been preparing us and shaping us. But it will be His divine time that it will all unfold. He has revealed this to Jerry as well.
So, I am full of joy and expectancy.
I am sad about the deaths this week. But I do know that each person is now in a better place. Finally at real peace.
I’m a little………well, I’ll be honest and say that I am VERY angry about a situation that has so many layers of being pathetic. My sister-in-law is ill and I’d asked for prayer for her. Someone emailed me expressing that they’re sorry she is ill (and note, did not offer prayer), but went on to make a sales pitch for a product. Now, I understand how their product relates, but the procedure they used to approach me was in my mind quite low. It angered me, very much. I did not respond right away because I knew that it would not have been nice. I believe that the person meant well, but the sad part is that they are driven by making a sale. Another client. More money. That is what’s sad. And it all boils down to what I speak about all of the time. Knowing, or not knowing, one’s purpose in life.
I believe that they think that they’re selling something that will help people, and I’m sure it does. But, as an individual, they have to rise above their product and have a desire to simply want to help people, not to get their money. Which, by the way, I don’t have any money so they won’t or can’t get anything from me anyway! If they really wanted to help, they should have offered prayer, and perhaps offered the product at no charge! Not saying that I would have accepted, and even to do that is walking a very thin line of being an ambulance chaser, but it would have shown that their heart was for my sister-in-law and me.
I was writing this blog as I read their email, so that is why the tenor of this post has changed. But I realize that it happened at this time for a reason. It is timely because it ties in to what my heart has been feeling and has tried to say above. I am rejoicing that God continues to work through me to be a blessing. Period. I do what I do simply because I love the Lord, and I love people. I know that it is my purpose and my design to want to bless, inspire, encourage, uplift, and empower others. Although I, like anyone else, need to make an income, I don’t do what I do to make money. I am more concerned about people receiving what God has put in me to give to them.
I’m not knocking ANYONE for making a living. Not at all. But, I am knocking anyone who is driven solely to make money. Ask yourself, is money your *only* motivation? Are you doing what you were called to do? Are you walking in your purpose? If so, God will provide your income as you joyfully do your job. And you wouldn’t take inappropriate advantage of people when they’re most vulnerable. Nor would your every waking thought, action, and words be about making money and collecting and gaining new clients.
Life is so much more than that! If you don’t know that, then you are not living at all.
Carla Y. Nix
On the other hand, I’m feeling happy because God is blessing me in ministry. Allowing me to be a blessing and impacting others in a positive way. Allowing His light to shine through me. God is using me as His vessel, as His instrument. This is all that I desire in life. It really is. I don’t ask for much. I don’t need much. I just want to be a blessing.
I am looking forward to even more great things in the new year. God has already given me my theme as He does for each year.
My theme for the new year:
God’s own time, not mine, in 2009
I’m expecting great things in 2009 because God has assured me that He has some remarkable things in store for my husband and I in 2009. But, He is in control. He is ordering our steps. He is opening the doors. He is leading the way. He has been preparing us and shaping us. But it will be His divine time that it will all unfold. He has revealed this to Jerry as well.
So, I am full of joy and expectancy.
I am sad about the deaths this week. But I do know that each person is now in a better place. Finally at real peace.
I’m a little………well, I’ll be honest and say that I am VERY angry about a situation that has so many layers of being pathetic. My sister-in-law is ill and I’d asked for prayer for her. Someone emailed me expressing that they’re sorry she is ill (and note, did not offer prayer), but went on to make a sales pitch for a product. Now, I understand how their product relates, but the procedure they used to approach me was in my mind quite low. It angered me, very much. I did not respond right away because I knew that it would not have been nice. I believe that the person meant well, but the sad part is that they are driven by making a sale. Another client. More money. That is what’s sad. And it all boils down to what I speak about all of the time. Knowing, or not knowing, one’s purpose in life.
I believe that they think that they’re selling something that will help people, and I’m sure it does. But, as an individual, they have to rise above their product and have a desire to simply want to help people, not to get their money. Which, by the way, I don’t have any money so they won’t or can’t get anything from me anyway! If they really wanted to help, they should have offered prayer, and perhaps offered the product at no charge! Not saying that I would have accepted, and even to do that is walking a very thin line of being an ambulance chaser, but it would have shown that their heart was for my sister-in-law and me.
I was writing this blog as I read their email, so that is why the tenor of this post has changed. But I realize that it happened at this time for a reason. It is timely because it ties in to what my heart has been feeling and has tried to say above. I am rejoicing that God continues to work through me to be a blessing. Period. I do what I do simply because I love the Lord, and I love people. I know that it is my purpose and my design to want to bless, inspire, encourage, uplift, and empower others. Although I, like anyone else, need to make an income, I don’t do what I do to make money. I am more concerned about people receiving what God has put in me to give to them.
I’m not knocking ANYONE for making a living. Not at all. But, I am knocking anyone who is driven solely to make money. Ask yourself, is money your *only* motivation? Are you doing what you were called to do? Are you walking in your purpose? If so, God will provide your income as you joyfully do your job. And you wouldn’t take inappropriate advantage of people when they’re most vulnerable. Nor would your every waking thought, action, and words be about making money and collecting and gaining new clients.
Life is so much more than that! If you don’t know that, then you are not living at all.
Carla Y. Nix
Wednesday, September 03, 2008
Tuesday, September 02, 2008
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
Monday, August 25, 2008
FROM SEPARATION TO RESTORATION
I hope that you had an opportunity to listen to my inspirational blog this morning, "Rise Above It!'.
The link below is a quick follow-up to that. Perhaps I can be of assistance to you. Please let me know if I can, for I would be happy to be a blessing.
Blessings!
Carla
The link below is a quick follow-up to that. Perhaps I can be of assistance to you. Please let me know if I can, for I would be happy to be a blessing.
Blessings!
Carla
Friday, August 22, 2008
YOUR LIFE IS A VAPOR
Your life is on loan to you. The service you give is payment of your debt. Live wisely.
Be blessed by today's message.
Blessings!
Carla
Be blessed by today's message.
Blessings!
Carla
Thursday, August 21, 2008
THE WHOLE ARMOUR OF GOD
God's Word tells us to put on the whole armour of God so that we would be able to stand against the attacks of our enemy. Our enemy isn't always the one you see. There is a spiritual warfare going on and we need to learn to protect ourselves.
Be blessed by today's message.
Blessings!
Carla
Be blessed by today's message.
Blessings!
Carla
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
THE VALLEY OF DRY BONES
Get up and live!!! Be blessed by today's message. It is indeed a strong word for you this day.
Blessings!
Carla
Blessings!
Carla
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
AIDS & THE CHURCH
God is wonderful in providing a "ram in the bush". My scheduled guest was a no-show for tonight's radio show. However, God sent a good pastor friend of mine who provided wonderful support and resources for tonight's broadcast.
Kudos and much gratitude to John Gilmore for his participation in the show.
Blessings!
Carla
Kudos and much gratitude to John Gilmore for his participation in the show.
Blessings!
Carla
Monday, August 18, 2008
HOW YA LIKE ME NOW??!!!
Have you ever been bullied? What about your child? It hurts, doesn't it?
Were you the bully? Are you still a bully? Is your child a bully?
Hey.....to all.......be blessed by my inspirational message podcast. I had to do it in two parts. You want to listen to each!
PART 1:
PART 2:
Blessings!
Carla
Were you the bully? Are you still a bully? Is your child a bully?
Hey.....to all.......be blessed by my inspirational message podcast. I had to do it in two parts. You want to listen to each!
PART 1:
PART 2:
Blessings!
Carla
Friday, August 15, 2008
FOCUS!
Never lose sight of your goals. Keep your eyes on the prize. Stay focused.
Be blessed by today's message.
Blessings!
Carla
Be blessed by today's message.
Blessings!
Carla
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
Daily Inspirational Podcasts
You can listen to my daily inspirational messages through my podcasts. The media player widget is updated each time I record a new message. To access all podcasts, click the arrow on the right to bring you back to each message.
I would love to receive your feedback. Please let me know if these messages are a blessing to you.
Blessings!
Carla
I would love to receive your feedback. Please let me know if these messages are a blessing to you.
Blessings!
Carla
Saturday, August 09, 2008
Wednesday, August 06, 2008
Monday, August 04, 2008
SHAKE INTO REALITY
I was a guest blogger at the "Learn To Feel Pretty" blog, which celebrates women. Feel free to check out my submission by clicking here.
Carla
Carla
Saturday, August 02, 2008
RENEWAL
Join me today and feel the renewal........ahhhh......
Be blessed by the message.....
Blessings and Peace!
Carla
Be blessed by the message.....
Blessings and Peace!
Carla
Friday, August 01, 2008
YOU ARE NOT ALONE
I pray that you are blessed and comforted, as well as encouraged by today's message.
Guess what? I love you!
Blessings!
Carla
Guess what? I love you!
Blessings!
Carla
Thursday, July 31, 2008
USE IT!
Enjoy the message today. Also be blessed by this video of J. Moss singing *We Must Praise*. We definitely must use what God has given us to honor, glorify, and to praise Him. We do this by using our gifts and talents. (Lyrics of the song are posted below the video. These words minister to me each time I hear the song.)
WE MUST PRAISE - By J. Moss
If I were a drummer, I would use my cymbal
If I were a writer, I would use a pencil
I would use my voice, if I were a singer
No matter who or what we are, we must praise
If I was a doctor, I would use my research
A prolific dissertation, if I was a speaker
I would use my hands, if I were a potter
No matter who or what we are, we must praise
CHORUS
Let the people of God bless Him
Let it ring with love and truth
With our gifts we exalt Thee
Merciful, wonderful God
We must praise
If I were an eagle, I would use my wings
Since I'm a believer, I use everything
Make a joyful noise unto the Lord
All ye people
No matter who or what we are, we must praise
CHORUS
VAMP
Praise His Holy, Holy Name (X5)
With our gifts we exalt Thee
Merciful wonderful God
Oh Hallelujah, Oh glory, Oh holy of holies
Oh Bread of life God, Oh meat of hunger Lord
Water of thirst Lord, We magnify you
We thank You for what You've done God
What You¹re doing God and what You're gonna do
No matter who or what we are, we must praise
WE MUST PRAISE - By J. Moss
If I were a drummer, I would use my cymbal
If I were a writer, I would use a pencil
I would use my voice, if I were a singer
No matter who or what we are, we must praise
If I was a doctor, I would use my research
A prolific dissertation, if I was a speaker
I would use my hands, if I were a potter
No matter who or what we are, we must praise
CHORUS
Let the people of God bless Him
Let it ring with love and truth
With our gifts we exalt Thee
Merciful, wonderful God
We must praise
If I were an eagle, I would use my wings
Since I'm a believer, I use everything
Make a joyful noise unto the Lord
All ye people
No matter who or what we are, we must praise
CHORUS
VAMP
Praise His Holy, Holy Name (X5)
With our gifts we exalt Thee
Merciful wonderful God
Oh Hallelujah, Oh glory, Oh holy of holies
Oh Bread of life God, Oh meat of hunger Lord
Water of thirst Lord, We magnify you
We thank You for what You've done God
What You¹re doing God and what You're gonna do
No matter who or what we are, we must praise
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
Monday, July 28, 2008
Saturday, July 26, 2008
HAVE YOU LOST YOUR WAY?
Weekend cool down and meditation. I pray that this blesses you, along with the two videos included.
Blessings!
Carla
Blessings!
Carla
Friday, July 25, 2008
HANG IN THERE!
I realize that the day is basically over, but it's never too late for inspiration. I've been out and about since early this morning, so I apologize for the delay in this.
I am praising God for His goodness and blessings right now. He's a mighty God. Please be encouraged and blessed by my podcast. I'm also adding a few video links that reflect my testimony, as well as my joy. I know that they will bless you as well. Have a great weekend!
Blessings!
Carla
I am praising God for His goodness and blessings right now. He's a mighty God. Please be encouraged and blessed by my podcast. I'm also adding a few video links that reflect my testimony, as well as my joy. I know that they will bless you as well. Have a great weekend!
Blessings!
Carla
Thursday, July 24, 2008
REJOICE!
Today's podcast is very special to me this day. All of them are and they minister to me as well. But today's, God truly, truly, truly spoke directly and specifically to me in a way that I knew without a doubt that He's working it out. As I meditated and prayed this morning, focusing on Him, He later spoke to me and simply said "rejoice". And as I pondered about Today's Inspiration and wondered what He would have me to speak about, He again spoke to my spirit. Gave me the Words in the scriptures that I share with you in the podcast. But, I didn't know the reference off the top of my head. I couldn't get on the internet to do a quick check, as the phone was being used (okay....we're in the country......they don't have DSL or cable in my area, so I use dial up and I have one line). Anyway, I needed the time this morning to do a lot of meditating and praying. Well, when I got back to thinking about Today's Inspiration, again, I wondered exactly where to go to find the scripture reference.
Lo and behold......as I was quiet and just thought on the Words that God was speaking to me, He then spoke in that very still and quiet voice, leading me to Philippians. The stillness in His voice was actually quite loud. And I.....in my foolishness and flesh, actually "argued" within and said, "No, I don't think it's there. That's not where I should go." But, we know where those thoughts were coming from, don't we. God's voice spoke louder and said to go there. So I went. And sure enough, what He was speaking to me was there. And then I eventually was led to other references (when I did eventually get online), but not until I was obedient to His first leading.
It was also dropped in my spirit to add this video to the podcast to bless and minister to someone else (as well as myself) this day.
Please listen to the podcast, and watch/listen to this video. I know that you will be blessed!
Blessings!
Carla
Lo and behold......as I was quiet and just thought on the Words that God was speaking to me, He then spoke in that very still and quiet voice, leading me to Philippians. The stillness in His voice was actually quite loud. And I.....in my foolishness and flesh, actually "argued" within and said, "No, I don't think it's there. That's not where I should go." But, we know where those thoughts were coming from, don't we. God's voice spoke louder and said to go there. So I went. And sure enough, what He was speaking to me was there. And then I eventually was led to other references (when I did eventually get online), but not until I was obedient to His first leading.
It was also dropped in my spirit to add this video to the podcast to bless and minister to someone else (as well as myself) this day.
Please listen to the podcast, and watch/listen to this video. I know that you will be blessed!
Blessings!
Carla
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
SOAR!
Enjoy tonight's Passion4Life Radio Show broadcast. My topic was "SOAR!"
I am also posting a couple of resources for anyone who may need help. For anyone who feels overwhelmed, depressed, or have thoughts of suicide. Please seek professional help. Go to the link below, or if you're in a crisis mode (or know of someone), please call the number below.
RESOURCES:
Suicide Prevention Lifeline Organization
The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline is a 24-hour, toll-free suicide prevention service available to anyone in suicidal crisis. If you need help, please dial 1-800-273-TALK (8255).
Blessings!
Carla
I am also posting a couple of resources for anyone who may need help. For anyone who feels overwhelmed, depressed, or have thoughts of suicide. Please seek professional help. Go to the link below, or if you're in a crisis mode (or know of someone), please call the number below.
RESOURCES:
Suicide Prevention Lifeline Organization
The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline is a 24-hour, toll-free suicide prevention service available to anyone in suicidal crisis. If you need help, please dial 1-800-273-TALK (8255).
Blessings!
Carla
SPEAK IT!
Enjoy my blog podcast, as well as the video I've added. I pray that you will be blessed this day!
THIS IS MY FIRST TIME EVER HEARING THIS SONG, AND GOD LED ME TO IT THIS MORNING. LAST NIGHT, HE'D ALREADY GIVEN ME WHAT HE WANTED ME TO SHARE AS THE INSPIRATION TODAY. I KNOW IT WAS HE WHO DIRECTED ME TO FIND LAWRENCE'S SONG TO COMPLEMENT TODAY'S INSPIRATION. ACTUALLY, I DIDN'T EVEN LISTEN TO THE SONG UNTIL AFTER I RECORDED MY INSPIRATION. GLORY TO GOD!
Blessings!
Carla
THIS IS MY FIRST TIME EVER HEARING THIS SONG, AND GOD LED ME TO IT THIS MORNING. LAST NIGHT, HE'D ALREADY GIVEN ME WHAT HE WANTED ME TO SHARE AS THE INSPIRATION TODAY. I KNOW IT WAS HE WHO DIRECTED ME TO FIND LAWRENCE'S SONG TO COMPLEMENT TODAY'S INSPIRATION. ACTUALLY, I DIDN'T EVEN LISTEN TO THE SONG UNTIL AFTER I RECORDED MY INSPIRATION. GLORY TO GOD!
Blessings!
Carla
SPEAK IT!
Enjoy my blog podcast, as well as the video I've added. I pray that you will be blessed this day!
THIS IS MY FIRST TIME EVER HEARING THIS SONG, AND GOD LED ME TO IT THIS MORNING. LAST NIGHT, HE'D ALREADY GIVEN ME WHAT HE WANTED ME TO SHARE AS THE INSPIRATION TODAY. I KNOW IT WAS HE WHO DIRECTED ME TO FIND LAWRENCE'S SONG TO COMPLEMENT TODAY'S INSPIRATION. ACTUALLY, I DIDN'T EVEN LISTEN TO THE SONG UNTIL AFTER I RECORDED MY INSPIRATION. GLORY TO GOD!
Blessings!
Carla
THIS IS MY FIRST TIME EVER HEARING THIS SONG, AND GOD LED ME TO IT THIS MORNING. LAST NIGHT, HE'D ALREADY GIVEN ME WHAT HE WANTED ME TO SHARE AS THE INSPIRATION TODAY. I KNOW IT WAS HE WHO DIRECTED ME TO FIND LAWRENCE'S SONG TO COMPLEMENT TODAY'S INSPIRATION. ACTUALLY, I DIDN'T EVEN LISTEN TO THE SONG UNTIL AFTER I RECORDED MY INSPIRATION. GLORY TO GOD!
Blessings!
Carla
Monday, July 21, 2008
CHANGE YOUR MIND!
CHANGE YOUR MIND!
Be blessed by Today's Inspiration. Enjoy the podcast.
Blessings!
Carla
Be blessed by Today's Inspiration. Enjoy the podcast.
Blessings!
Carla
Saturday, July 19, 2008
Friday, July 18, 2008
Thursday, July 17, 2008
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
JAWS OF LIFE - SEARCH AND DELIVERANCE
Do you struggle with addictions? Any kind. Not just drugs.
What has you gripped? What strongholds wear you down? What do you seem not to have any control over?
Listen to my radio show, Passion4Life, which was recorded tonight. I was honored to have as my guest a wonderful lady who shared her story of deliverance from crack cocaine. Actually, her story is not simply of deliverance from drugs, but that of God rescuing her from herself. Are you bound and trapped by something that only a spiritual jaws of life (God) can deliver you from? You're not alone. Join us for this dynamic and powerful show.
Go here, or click the play arrow below on the media player:
Blessings!
Carla
What has you gripped? What strongholds wear you down? What do you seem not to have any control over?
Listen to my radio show, Passion4Life, which was recorded tonight. I was honored to have as my guest a wonderful lady who shared her story of deliverance from crack cocaine. Actually, her story is not simply of deliverance from drugs, but that of God rescuing her from herself. Are you bound and trapped by something that only a spiritual jaws of life (God) can deliver you from? You're not alone. Join us for this dynamic and powerful show.
Go here, or click the play arrow below on the media player:
Blessings!
Carla
Monday, July 14, 2008
LET ME HELP YOU!
Sunday, July 13, 2008
52
Fifty-two. That was the number God showed me as I had fallen into a pretty deep sleep yesterday. I didn’t even know that I’d fallen asleep. That happens sometime. I last remembered stretching out in my bed because I was feeling extremely weak and lethargic. I just needed to lie down, I thought, and hopefully regain some strength. It was late afternoon/late evening time, so I wasn’t looking to go to sleep just yet. I was just tired because for the last two weeks, I’d been going and doing non-stop without much of a break.
First my trip to Dallas as God blessed me to speak during a wonderful revival. The adrenalin of the entire experience continued to keep me going as I needed it for my return home. The very next day began my own church’s revival, as well as our Vacation Bible School. I had been asked to teach the adult classes. It was my pleasure and honor to do so. But………and there’s always a but, isn’t it……..there was a hitch. I was asked about 2 weeks prior to the VBS, which should have been enough time to be ready. However, they never got the material to me before my trip before Dallas. One person thought that someone else would give it to me…..and it didn’t pan out that way. Well, while I was in Dallas, I even called and asked them to please, please, please , bring the material to my daughter who would be at church that Sunday (I got home Sunday evening). Just the day before the classes were to begin, but I felt confident that I would be able to study it that night and during the day on Monday.
Well, I get home and learn that I still have no material because of a number of reasons. I was eventually told that the curriculum for my class never came in after all………….sigh. The director apologized vehemently and asked me to use the curriculum from last year’s VBS. I had to remind her that I wasn’t at last year’s school because I was working and could not make it, therefore, I had no material! So, around mid-day on the day of the first class, she came to my house and brought me last year’s material (it comes in 10-day sessions, so there were more that could have been used).
At this point, it was quite overwhelming and I felt a lot of pressure. And I was still floating on the adrenalin that had been keeping me up to and through the revival in Dallas. However, the material was not working for me. The Director told me when she brought it that I didn’t have to use it if I didn’t want to. She had total confidence in me. Actually, much more than I felt within myself, yet I trusted God to work through me. And in my trusting and my praying and my leaning on Him, His Spirit kept leading me to some material that I’d already written myself some weeks prior to this. Actually, it was a combination of things that He’d already given me. At this 11th hour, I totally depended on Him to guide me and I was able to put together a lesson plan.
Everything went well. God truly prepared me, as everything that He’d previously given me was exactly what was needed for my classes. In fact, the themes and subjects were in perfect alignment with the overall Vacation Bible School’s. I had no idea because I had not seen any material for the school in advance. But God………God had already worked it out. And my class loved the presentation, praise God.
My only dismay, after all of this was over, was with the expectations that were put on me. It was believed that regardless of the mishaps, I would be able to do the job. I am dismayed because unfortunately, this is something that has been going on for way too many years, from too many people. I don’t know why they think that I can just do things off the top of my head with little or no preparation. That drives me crazy! I don’t like to function like that. It is unnecessary stress and poor planning. I need to be prepared! But, I blame myself because I know and truly believe that people will treat you as you allow them to treat you. I’m working on this…
Well, the adrenalin was still flowing. I was able to give a short sigh of relief that VBS was over and the revival in Dallas. All of that was behind me, yet I had so much inside of me that I continued to work on my own projects and the things that God is allowing me to do with my online ministry, the radio show, and my writing. Meanwhile, I am still working on putting together my own media/marketing information and packet. Working on my writing, my studying, and even on finding ways to generate income for myself. Of course, I still have a family and am wife and mother. That job never ends and is my first priority over everything else.
With the adrenalin still flowing, and no real break from anything, I shifted into yet another gear as my husband’s family reunion took place. It was a wonderful 3-day event with basically non-stop activities. It was great and I enjoyed meeting the Nix/Nicholson family members that I didn’t know. And it was definitely a blast to be with those family members that I know, but don’t get to see too often. I am happy that my children got to meet and greet their family! They know more of my family than they do the Nix’s. It was nice for me to see them with this other side.
Well, finally, we approach this week. I still never really stopped anything. Never took a break. I guess the adrenaline eventually waned and took its toll. It’s amazing, though, that some people think that just because I do not go to a 9 to 5 anymore that I don’t do anything. They think that I “play” on the computer and I am doing nothing significant in my life. In fact, I was contacted to do some small administrative projects for someone I know. I accepted to do the work, but it amazed me that it was believed that since I am “home”, I have nothing else to do and they……like some others…….needed the work like yesterday! They figured that I could do that, since, after all, I’m home. I did do the work, but I had to let them know that I had other things I was already working on and I did it in a manner that was more timely for me (see, I’m working on teaching others how to treat me…….).
Never forgetting my most important job – being mother and wife – no matter how tired I’d become, it doesn’t matter because they are my work. They are my true ministry. They are my responsibility. So, I spent a great week of quality time with my girls, and my husband. Never forgetting my responsibility as Mom even to my 23 year old son who lives in North Carolina, I even had my share of phone discussions with him. I am truly blessed to have my family. I love them so much. God has a way of encouraging us as we do the work we were called to do. My husband told me the other day that he loves me so much and he thanks God for me. He went on to thank me for loving him and for always standing behind him in support and with him in partnership. He said that he needs me and he appreciates me. That warmed my heart, and more than he knew, it was a huge sense of encouragement for me.
Well, yesterday, as I’d entered into that stupor of sleep unaware, two things happened. One being that my husband was thinking about me. He said that he was just thanking God in his heart for me and he felt so much love for me. He couldn’t call me at that time (he works 2nd shift), as they can’t use their phones in the building. So, his thought was that he would call me on his break. Meanwhile, I’m in the heavy sleep, and God shows me the number 52. I don’t remember dreaming about anything, or hearing anything around me (i.e., television). But, I SAW the number 52, and I remember thinking, “Oh, don’t tell me that my ‘sugar’ is as low as 52”. Yet, I couldn’t wake up. I remember that. But, eventually I did awaken and as I got up, I felt the signs of the low blood sugar (hypoglycemia). I struggled to test my blood and in the back of my mind, I remembered the 52. Lo and behold, my blood sugar read 51. Yes, 51. Way too low (blood glucose level should not be lower than 80 - 70).
I know that God was showing me this……and I’m assuming that when He was showing me, I was at 52. However, by the time that I’d awaken and tested myself, it dropped one more point down to 51. I could’ve slept away into a coma!
Praise God for awakening me.
This is not the first time that my sugar has dropped while asleep. However, I thought that I was maintaining better by now. I am thinking that the fact that I was so tired from the non-stop adrenalin and the running, I just crashed yesterday and I didn’t even have much energy. I had eaten a small breakfast that morning, but as the day went on, just being exhausted I didn’t even feel like eating anymore (I missed lunch, and by the time I’d awaken, it was even past dinner time). Before I’d fallen asleep, I’d cooked and fixed my husband’s plate to bring to work for his supper. When he left, I’d even made sure that my girls ate, or at least, had access to things to eat in the house. Yet, all I could do for myself was to crash even though that wasn’t my intention.
I am still in awe as to how God showed me 52. And, simultaneously, He had me on my husband’s mind in a very strong way. Who knows. Maybe knowing that number in my subconscious mind forced me to respond to God’s nudging to awaken me. And maybe that was in response to my husband subconsciously praying for me because God laid me on his mind.
Never doubt the power of prayer, and never, ever, lightly wipe aside thoughts of people that God places in your spirit. I have learned to simply pray when it happens to me and I truly believe that my husband’s prayer for me exemplified James 5:16 - simply put, that our prayers are powerful and effective!
It is no coincidence that my radio show on Tuesday was about the power of prayer. I am so thankful for Robert Cushman being my guest. I thoroughly enjoyed that show and I am still reading his book, “What If You Pray?” It’s a great read and one that you want to read over and over.
There are no coincidences in God. He order our steps, He’s the author and finisher of our faith, He orchestrates the experiences of our lives, and He is in full control. The number 52 that He flashed in my mind simply proves, yet again, His power! I’ll probably never forget that number (although I pray that I don’t see it again on my glucose meter).
First my trip to Dallas as God blessed me to speak during a wonderful revival. The adrenalin of the entire experience continued to keep me going as I needed it for my return home. The very next day began my own church’s revival, as well as our Vacation Bible School. I had been asked to teach the adult classes. It was my pleasure and honor to do so. But………and there’s always a but, isn’t it……..there was a hitch. I was asked about 2 weeks prior to the VBS, which should have been enough time to be ready. However, they never got the material to me before my trip before Dallas. One person thought that someone else would give it to me…..and it didn’t pan out that way. Well, while I was in Dallas, I even called and asked them to please, please, please , bring the material to my daughter who would be at church that Sunday (I got home Sunday evening). Just the day before the classes were to begin, but I felt confident that I would be able to study it that night and during the day on Monday.
Well, I get home and learn that I still have no material because of a number of reasons. I was eventually told that the curriculum for my class never came in after all………….sigh. The director apologized vehemently and asked me to use the curriculum from last year’s VBS. I had to remind her that I wasn’t at last year’s school because I was working and could not make it, therefore, I had no material! So, around mid-day on the day of the first class, she came to my house and brought me last year’s material (it comes in 10-day sessions, so there were more that could have been used).
At this point, it was quite overwhelming and I felt a lot of pressure. And I was still floating on the adrenalin that had been keeping me up to and through the revival in Dallas. However, the material was not working for me. The Director told me when she brought it that I didn’t have to use it if I didn’t want to. She had total confidence in me. Actually, much more than I felt within myself, yet I trusted God to work through me. And in my trusting and my praying and my leaning on Him, His Spirit kept leading me to some material that I’d already written myself some weeks prior to this. Actually, it was a combination of things that He’d already given me. At this 11th hour, I totally depended on Him to guide me and I was able to put together a lesson plan.
Everything went well. God truly prepared me, as everything that He’d previously given me was exactly what was needed for my classes. In fact, the themes and subjects were in perfect alignment with the overall Vacation Bible School’s. I had no idea because I had not seen any material for the school in advance. But God………God had already worked it out. And my class loved the presentation, praise God.
My only dismay, after all of this was over, was with the expectations that were put on me. It was believed that regardless of the mishaps, I would be able to do the job. I am dismayed because unfortunately, this is something that has been going on for way too many years, from too many people. I don’t know why they think that I can just do things off the top of my head with little or no preparation. That drives me crazy! I don’t like to function like that. It is unnecessary stress and poor planning. I need to be prepared! But, I blame myself because I know and truly believe that people will treat you as you allow them to treat you. I’m working on this…
Well, the adrenalin was still flowing. I was able to give a short sigh of relief that VBS was over and the revival in Dallas. All of that was behind me, yet I had so much inside of me that I continued to work on my own projects and the things that God is allowing me to do with my online ministry, the radio show, and my writing. Meanwhile, I am still working on putting together my own media/marketing information and packet. Working on my writing, my studying, and even on finding ways to generate income for myself. Of course, I still have a family and am wife and mother. That job never ends and is my first priority over everything else.
With the adrenalin still flowing, and no real break from anything, I shifted into yet another gear as my husband’s family reunion took place. It was a wonderful 3-day event with basically non-stop activities. It was great and I enjoyed meeting the Nix/Nicholson family members that I didn’t know. And it was definitely a blast to be with those family members that I know, but don’t get to see too often. I am happy that my children got to meet and greet their family! They know more of my family than they do the Nix’s. It was nice for me to see them with this other side.
Well, finally, we approach this week. I still never really stopped anything. Never took a break. I guess the adrenaline eventually waned and took its toll. It’s amazing, though, that some people think that just because I do not go to a 9 to 5 anymore that I don’t do anything. They think that I “play” on the computer and I am doing nothing significant in my life. In fact, I was contacted to do some small administrative projects for someone I know. I accepted to do the work, but it amazed me that it was believed that since I am “home”, I have nothing else to do and they……like some others…….needed the work like yesterday! They figured that I could do that, since, after all, I’m home. I did do the work, but I had to let them know that I had other things I was already working on and I did it in a manner that was more timely for me (see, I’m working on teaching others how to treat me…….).
Never forgetting my most important job – being mother and wife – no matter how tired I’d become, it doesn’t matter because they are my work. They are my true ministry. They are my responsibility. So, I spent a great week of quality time with my girls, and my husband. Never forgetting my responsibility as Mom even to my 23 year old son who lives in North Carolina, I even had my share of phone discussions with him. I am truly blessed to have my family. I love them so much. God has a way of encouraging us as we do the work we were called to do. My husband told me the other day that he loves me so much and he thanks God for me. He went on to thank me for loving him and for always standing behind him in support and with him in partnership. He said that he needs me and he appreciates me. That warmed my heart, and more than he knew, it was a huge sense of encouragement for me.
Well, yesterday, as I’d entered into that stupor of sleep unaware, two things happened. One being that my husband was thinking about me. He said that he was just thanking God in his heart for me and he felt so much love for me. He couldn’t call me at that time (he works 2nd shift), as they can’t use their phones in the building. So, his thought was that he would call me on his break. Meanwhile, I’m in the heavy sleep, and God shows me the number 52. I don’t remember dreaming about anything, or hearing anything around me (i.e., television). But, I SAW the number 52, and I remember thinking, “Oh, don’t tell me that my ‘sugar’ is as low as 52”. Yet, I couldn’t wake up. I remember that. But, eventually I did awaken and as I got up, I felt the signs of the low blood sugar (hypoglycemia). I struggled to test my blood and in the back of my mind, I remembered the 52. Lo and behold, my blood sugar read 51. Yes, 51. Way too low (blood glucose
I know that God was showing me this……and I’m assuming that when He was showing me, I was at 52. However, by the time that I’d awaken and tested myself, it dropped one more point down to 51. I could’ve slept away into a coma!
Praise God for awakening me.
This is not the first time that my sugar has dropped while asleep. However, I thought that I was maintaining better by now. I am thinking that the fact that I was so tired from the non-stop adrenalin and the running, I just crashed yesterday and I didn’t even have much energy. I had eaten a small breakfast that morning, but as the day went on, just being exhausted I didn’t even feel like eating anymore (I missed lunch, and by the time I’d awaken, it was even past dinner time). Before I’d fallen asleep, I’d cooked and fixed my husband’s plate to bring to work for his supper. When he left, I’d even made sure that my girls ate, or at least, had access to things to eat in the house. Yet, all I could do for myself was to crash even though that wasn’t my intention.
I am still in awe as to how God showed me 52. And, simultaneously, He had me on my husband’s mind in a very strong way. Who knows. Maybe knowing that number in my subconscious mind forced me to respond to God’s nudging to awaken me. And maybe that was in response to my husband subconsciously praying for me because God laid me on his mind.
Never doubt the power of prayer, and never, ever, lightly wipe aside thoughts of people that God places in your spirit. I have learned to simply pray when it happens to me and I truly believe that my husband’s prayer for me exemplified James 5:16 - simply put, that our prayers are powerful and effective!
It is no coincidence that my radio show on Tuesday was about the power of prayer. I am so thankful for Robert Cushman being my guest. I thoroughly enjoyed that show and I am still reading his book, “What If You Pray?” It’s a great read and one that you want to read over and over.
There are no coincidences in God. He order our steps, He’s the author and finisher of our faith, He orchestrates the experiences of our lives, and He is in full control. The number 52 that He flashed in my mind simply proves, yet again, His power! I’ll probably never forget that number (although I pray that I don’t see it again on my glucose meter).
Friday, July 04, 2008
DECLARATION OF INDEPENDENCE
“If the Son therefore shall make you free, ye shall be free indeed.” ~John 8:36
I know that I am probably a whole year behind everybody else, but for the first time last night, I watched Tyler Perry’s movie “Why Did I Get Married”. Excellent movie. Superb acting, writing, and directing.
As a married woman, I laughed and even cried with (and at) some of the characters. The movie was about four (well, actually five) couples and their ups and downs. I am most impressed with the character played by Jill Scott. She was a sweet, beautiful, spiritual, and unfortunately an extremely naïve woman who suffered the verbal and emotional abuse from her jerk of a husband. She loved this man and wanted nothing but for her marriage to work. She was willing to endure his constant hurting and cruel remarks to her, as well as heartless rejection as a woman and total disrespect as his wife. She put up with it because she was not free as a person. She built her existence and validity around him. Sadly, he broke her down at every opportunity he got.
She began to see herself as he saw her; not as the wonderful person she really was. Her soul and spirit was in bondage to him.
I’ve never been abused as this character was, yet I related to her. For, I understand what it means to seek validation and approval from others. From my husband, yes, but also from others. I understand what it is to desire to be accepted and to have the need to fit in. I know what it is to feel unappealing, undesirable, and unloved.
Yet, I can rejoice because I also know what It is to come to the realization that self-imposed chains is a trick of the enemy who wants us not to live or walk in the freedom and liberation that is already ours. When we look to man to justify us, we will fall every time. When we seek approval from others, it diminishes who we really are.
We have to realize where our freedom comes from. We have been set free when Jesus Christ died for our sins and we received this gift of freedom when we accepted Him as our Savior. Because of this free gift, we have the right to hold our heads up, walk uprightly, and carry ourselves like the royalty that we are. No one……….nobody…….should make us feel inadequate and insignificant. They don’t have the right to do so, and we shouldn’t allow them to even try. It doesn’t matter what they say, or don’t say; what they do, or don’t do. We should know who we are!
Declare your independence today!
I know that I am probably a whole year behind everybody else, but for the first time last night, I watched Tyler Perry’s movie “Why Did I Get Married”. Excellent movie. Superb acting, writing, and directing.
As a married woman, I laughed and even cried with (and at) some of the characters. The movie was about four (well, actually five) couples and their ups and downs. I am most impressed with the character played by Jill Scott. She was a sweet, beautiful, spiritual, and unfortunately an extremely naïve woman who suffered the verbal and emotional abuse from her jerk of a husband. She loved this man and wanted nothing but for her marriage to work. She was willing to endure his constant hurting and cruel remarks to her, as well as heartless rejection as a woman and total disrespect as his wife. She put up with it because she was not free as a person. She built her existence and validity around him. Sadly, he broke her down at every opportunity he got.
She began to see herself as he saw her; not as the wonderful person she really was. Her soul and spirit was in bondage to him.
I’ve never been abused as this character was, yet I related to her. For, I understand what it means to seek validation and approval from others. From my husband, yes, but also from others. I understand what it is to desire to be accepted and to have the need to fit in. I know what it is to feel unappealing, undesirable, and unloved.
Yet, I can rejoice because I also know what It is to come to the realization that self-imposed chains is a trick of the enemy who wants us not to live or walk in the freedom and liberation that is already ours. When we look to man to justify us, we will fall every time. When we seek approval from others, it diminishes who we really are.
We have to realize where our freedom comes from. We have been set free when Jesus Christ died for our sins and we received this gift of freedom when we accepted Him as our Savior. Because of this free gift, we have the right to hold our heads up, walk uprightly, and carry ourselves like the royalty that we are. No one……….nobody…….should make us feel inadequate and insignificant. They don’t have the right to do so, and we shouldn’t allow them to even try. It doesn’t matter what they say, or don’t say; what they do, or don’t do. We should know who we are!
Declare your independence today!
Monday, June 30, 2008
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
THE PERFECT EXAMPLE
For the voice recording of my blog, click the play arrow:
I’m up working this morning earlier than I normally do. I just have so much work to do with a limitation in available time, so I’m doing my best to cram what I can before my flight for Dallas leaves Thursday morning. It means very little sleep, but I can do it.
I just wanted to take a few minutes to jot some thoughts down regarding a current event. Actually, my mind, thoughts, and prayers have been with our fellow Americans in the mid-west region of the country. Those who have suffered from the devastation of the flooding from the Mississippi river. It’s terrible and my heart really goes out to them.
I’ve been kind of quiet on many of my thoughts from my perspective of surviving Katrina. I may have said a word here or there, but not really much of my underlying feelings. Well, something was stirred in me as I read a very open, honest, and sensitive forum discussion initiated by a fellow New Orleanian who expressed his angry feelings. I related very much to what he said. Reading his thoughts allowed me to deal with my own. In doing so, God opened my heart in many ways and reminded me what love is.
Basically, the young man feels that he shouldn’t care about the flood victims because no one cared about us in New Orleans. He made it clear that he’s not uncaring towards the people’s losses and all, he’s quite angry with the government’s response. There is definitely a difference. He also pointed out, as I too noticed from the beginning of the media coverage, that the folks in the mid-west were not referred to as “refugees” as we were. Yet, their situation was the same in that they needed to be evacuated and they lost their homes. The real difference is that from what we’ve seen on television, the people look different than we do. A shelter full of Black people is a room full of refugees. A group of Black people starving and dying at the Convention Center or the Superdome due to lack of government response is a group of refugees.
This is not the picture we’ve seen of the mid-west, nor the vernacular spoken by those reporting the news.
This reminds me of some of the pictures I saw during the aftermath of Katrina. One picture was that of Black people who’d “stolen” some food. They were labeled as looters. Another similar picture was shown of some White people. The caption stated that they found food to feed their family. Same thing, different people, different language.
The young man who started the forum is extremely angry with the government and all of the injustices that have been exposed regarding our plight with Katrina. I told him that I truly understand and have felt the same way.
He mentioned that he was a Christian and that he loves people – but his love is conditional. He says that he loves people who love Jesus. I reminded him that Jesus Christ is our perfect example. We have never been promised that life would be easy. In fact, we are promised that God would be with us when we go through our trials.
Isaiah 43:2 – “When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and through the rivers, they shall not overflow you. When you walk through the fire, you shall not be burned, nor shall the flame scorch you.”
John 16:33 –“ These things I have spoken to you, that in Me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation; but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world.”
Nothing says that we won’t go through anything. We are told that we will, but the comfort is in knowing that the Lord is with us through it all.
My reminding the young man that we can look to Jesus Christ as our example in every way sort of ticked him off.
I’m saddened by that because it is apparent that he is not in a place of embracing who he is. He loves the Lord. Yet, he doesn’t realize that even in the love that he says he has for others, he cannot place a condition on it. You can’t just love those who love Jesus. What if Jesus would have done that? Jesus – our example!
In encouraging him to seek to find peace and to subside the anger, I mentioned Jesus’ example again. As Jesus laid on the cross dying, He still maintained love for those who rejected Him.
Luke 23:34a – “Then said Jesus, Father, forgive them; for they know not what they do.”
As a so-called minority in every way, I have a lot to be angry about. As a survivor of Katrina and a victim of circumstance, I have a lot to be angry about. As a person who has experienced the ultimate betrayal in my own marriage, I have a lot to be angry about. As a person who knows what discrimination is because I’ve experienced it, I have a lot to be angry about. As an American sitting here on pins and needles as a precious loved one is serving in Iraq, I have a lot to be angry about.
I am not alone in any of this. We all have issues that anger us. Anger is a strong emotion and it can harm us in many ways. That is if we allow it to control us and build within us. We can use anger in a positive manner. We can allow it to pull us to action. If we turned all of our anger into a catalyst that would allow us to do something to make things better for others, we could get a lot done.
Ephesians 4:26-27 - "In your anger do not sin: Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry, and do not give the devil a foothold.”
Paul, in this letter to the Ephesians, doesn’t’ say that we won’t get angry. In fact, he doesn’t even say NOT to get angry. But when you do……….sin not! Deal with it. Process it. Don’t let it simmer and allow the devil to get a foothold. He does this when we allow him to cause us not to love one another. Read the entire chapter of Ephesians 4, Paul discusses loving one another and treating each other with love.
Jesus is indeed our perfect example in everything and every way. When we say that we are His disciples (followers, learners, believers), we have someone to look to for our guidance…..in everything and every way.
Carla
P.S. - My voice blog contains more content than this visual blog.
I’m up working this morning earlier than I normally do. I just have so much work to do with a limitation in available time, so I’m doing my best to cram what I can before my flight for Dallas leaves Thursday morning. It means very little sleep, but I can do it.
I just wanted to take a few minutes to jot some thoughts down regarding a current event. Actually, my mind, thoughts, and prayers have been with our fellow Americans in the mid-west region of the country. Those who have suffered from the devastation of the flooding from the Mississippi river. It’s terrible and my heart really goes out to them.
I’ve been kind of quiet on many of my thoughts from my perspective of surviving Katrina. I may have said a word here or there, but not really much of my underlying feelings. Well, something was stirred in me as I read a very open, honest, and sensitive forum discussion initiated by a fellow New Orleanian who expressed his angry feelings. I related very much to what he said. Reading his thoughts allowed me to deal with my own. In doing so, God opened my heart in many ways and reminded me what love is.
Basically, the young man feels that he shouldn’t care about the flood victims because no one cared about us in New Orleans. He made it clear that he’s not uncaring towards the people’s losses and all, he’s quite angry with the government’s response. There is definitely a difference. He also pointed out, as I too noticed from the beginning of the media coverage, that the folks in the mid-west were not referred to as “refugees” as we were. Yet, their situation was the same in that they needed to be evacuated and they lost their homes. The real difference is that from what we’ve seen on television, the people look different than we do. A shelter full of Black people is a room full of refugees. A group of Black people starving and dying at the Convention Center or the Superdome due to lack of government response is a group of refugees.
This is not the picture we’ve seen of the mid-west, nor the vernacular spoken by those reporting the news.
This reminds me of some of the pictures I saw during the aftermath of Katrina. One picture was that of Black people who’d “stolen” some food. They were labeled as looters. Another similar picture was shown of some White people. The caption stated that they found food to feed their family. Same thing, different people, different language.
The young man who started the forum is extremely angry with the government and all of the injustices that have been exposed regarding our plight with Katrina. I told him that I truly understand and have felt the same way.
He mentioned that he was a Christian and that he loves people – but his love is conditional. He says that he loves people who love Jesus. I reminded him that Jesus Christ is our perfect example. We have never been promised that life would be easy. In fact, we are promised that God would be with us when we go through our trials.
Isaiah 43:2 – “When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and through the rivers, they shall not overflow you. When you walk through the fire, you shall not be burned, nor shall the flame scorch you.”
John 16:33 –“ These things I have spoken to you, that in Me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation; but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world.”
Nothing says that we won’t go through anything. We are told that we will, but the comfort is in knowing that the Lord is with us through it all.
My reminding the young man that we can look to Jesus Christ as our example in every way sort of ticked him off.
I’m saddened by that because it is apparent that he is not in a place of embracing who he is. He loves the Lord. Yet, he doesn’t realize that even in the love that he says he has for others, he cannot place a condition on it. You can’t just love those who love Jesus. What if Jesus would have done that? Jesus – our example!
In encouraging him to seek to find peace and to subside the anger, I mentioned Jesus’ example again. As Jesus laid on the cross dying, He still maintained love for those who rejected Him.
Luke 23:34a – “Then said Jesus, Father, forgive them; for they know not what they do.”
As a so-called minority in every way, I have a lot to be angry about. As a survivor of Katrina and a victim of circumstance, I have a lot to be angry about. As a person who has experienced the ultimate betrayal in my own marriage, I have a lot to be angry about. As a person who knows what discrimination is because I’ve experienced it, I have a lot to be angry about. As an American sitting here on pins and needles as a precious loved one is serving in Iraq, I have a lot to be angry about.
I am not alone in any of this. We all have issues that anger us. Anger is a strong emotion and it can harm us in many ways. That is if we allow it to control us and build within us. We can use anger in a positive manner. We can allow it to pull us to action. If we turned all of our anger into a catalyst that would allow us to do something to make things better for others, we could get a lot done.
Ephesians 4:26-27 - "In your anger do not sin: Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry, and do not give the devil a foothold.”
Paul, in this letter to the Ephesians, doesn’t’ say that we won’t get angry. In fact, he doesn’t even say NOT to get angry. But when you do……….sin not! Deal with it. Process it. Don’t let it simmer and allow the devil to get a foothold. He does this when we allow him to cause us not to love one another. Read the entire chapter of Ephesians 4, Paul discusses loving one another and treating each other with love.
Jesus is indeed our perfect example in everything and every way. When we say that we are His disciples (followers, learners, believers), we have someone to look to for our guidance…..in everything and every way.
Carla
P.S. - My voice blog contains more content than this visual blog.
Monday, June 16, 2008
Our Father...
It's been a wonderful day. My girls and I made this a very nice and special Father's Day for my husband. Nothing big, just really sentimental and nice. Also, as Director of the Marriage Ministry at church, I was able to make a quick presentation in speech and with gifts for all of our fathers and grandfathers in the service. It turned out really sweet.
I thought about something today, as I looked at the children of our church. And even reflected on the many single moms and even the widows. I know for myself, I have taken for granted that it has never been awkward for me as far as Father's Day. I was raised by both of my parents, and I know for a fact that I was a daddy's girl. Being the only girl, I really was treated like a princess. Not that we were rich or anything, but I was daddy's girl.
Daddy died when I was 19. But, I was married at 21, and three years later, we had our first child. So, all of my life, I've been celebrating Father's Day.
Again, I realize that not everyone can say that. My heart goes out to all of the children who don't even know who their fathers are, or for those whose fathers are absent from the home, and for the many women who have men in their lives who are simply their "baby's daddy". I pray for those men who have not stepped up and proved to be more than mere sperm donors. Being male doesn't make one a father. It just shows that they can make a baby. But, it takes a real and special man to be a true father to their children.....regardless of the circumstances that surround them.
So, my thoughts are with the moms, and the children (even grown children) who feel abandoned or left out in regards to Father's Day.
I leave this from the Word of God to comfort you and to remind you that He is your all and all:
God is "A father to the fatherless, a defender of widows, is God in his holy dwelling." Psalm 68:5
Know that for all of us, He is everything that we need. We don't always choose what we will experience in life, but whatever it is, whatever lacks, God is the one who makes us whole.
Blessings!
Carla
I thought about something today, as I looked at the children of our church. And even reflected on the many single moms and even the widows. I know for myself, I have taken for granted that it has never been awkward for me as far as Father's Day. I was raised by both of my parents, and I know for a fact that I was a daddy's girl. Being the only girl, I really was treated like a princess. Not that we were rich or anything, but I was daddy's girl.
Daddy died when I was 19. But, I was married at 21, and three years later, we had our first child. So, all of my life, I've been celebrating Father's Day.
Again, I realize that not everyone can say that. My heart goes out to all of the children who don't even know who their fathers are, or for those whose fathers are absent from the home, and for the many women who have men in their lives who are simply their "baby's daddy". I pray for those men who have not stepped up and proved to be more than mere sperm donors. Being male doesn't make one a father. It just shows that they can make a baby. But, it takes a real and special man to be a true father to their children.....regardless of the circumstances that surround them.
So, my thoughts are with the moms, and the children (even grown children) who feel abandoned or left out in regards to Father's Day.
I leave this from the Word of God to comfort you and to remind you that He is your all and all:
God is "A father to the fatherless, a defender of widows, is God in his holy dwelling." Psalm 68:5
Know that for all of us, He is everything that we need. We don't always choose what we will experience in life, but whatever it is, whatever lacks, God is the one who makes us whole.
Blessings!
Carla
Saturday, June 14, 2008
I'M NOT JUST ANYBODY!
To hear my voice blog of this posting, click the play arrow on the media player below:
I haven’t blogged for a week or so. I’ve been quite busy with getting some things in order in my life. But, not writing, hurts. I read somewhere recently, an excellent statement regarding writers. I can’t remember where I read it, but it was from a man who said that it is more painful for a writer not to write than it is trying to find something to write about.
No truer words.
A writer never needs to find something to write about, as a writer simply is….and does. All he or she has to do is look around them and material awaits them.
As much as I speak and teach about purpose to others, and as I encourage them to do and be what they are destined to do, I still find myself growing into my own identity. I know my purpose, but it seems that God shows it to me consistently. He underscores who and what I am in many ways. I am sure that He’s not doing this to prove to Himself any of this, but He does so to show me. This reminds me of a devotional I read this week about the “tests” that come in our lives. God allows testing to come. In fact, He may write and produce the test Himself, yet He doesn’t do so for Himself. He knows what we’re made of and what’s inside of us. He knows because He placed it there. But, we don’t always know and we have to go through tests so that we not only know who we are, but most importantly, who HE is! It is through our tests that we become like tea bags. Stronger when we’re placed in hot water!
This identity thing has been tapping in my heart over the last few weeks. I’m seeing where in today’s high tech and money-driven world where many people are doing things and affixing titles to themselves that will allow them to make the most money. Trust me, I’m not against money, as we all need it. But, I have a problem when people do things just for the money. Actually, more power to them if they can, but it doesn’t please me when they suddenly become, let’s say a writer for example, because to have a book to sell means money (in their minds) and will move their products. To me, that tears the integrity of what a writer is. True, in this day and age, ANYBODY……..absolutely anybody can publish a book, call themselves an author, and promote themselves as such. Yet, there is no heart in their work. It’s only words on paper for one purpose…….to make money. Again, I am not against anyone making an income. Do so, but do so sincerely. The success of a writer is not the number of books they’ve moved, or the amount of dollars they’ve made in sells. One level of success as a writer is determined by the amount of lives you’ve positively impacted, touched, and enriched, because of your gift.
Years ago, I attended a seminar and workshop at Southern University at New Orleans with guest speaker author Terry McMillan. This was before Stella Got Her Groove, yet after Disappearing Acts and Waiting to Exhale. She said a lot, but the one thing that remained with me was her encouragement to writers. She said that a true writer writes not from the motivation of money, but for the sheer love of doing so. They write because they cannot NOT write. They write because they have to write.
Many writers (myself included) never even share all that they write because it’s such an intimate part of them, they aren’t always willing or ready to share that with anyone. Therefore, they’re not writing to sell it to someone. They’re writing because a writer is who they are.
I feel bad that I haven’t blogged all week, but God has still allowed me and used me to write for His honor and glory. What I’ve written has caused me to study deeply, pray, and to be a mouthpiece for Him. This is what walking in my purpose is all about because it not only allowed me to empower, teach, and bless others, it has also helped me to become a better and stronger person.
Whatever a person’s purpose is, they know it. They cannot help themselves. They have to function in their capability. It may not be writing for you, but I will say this, whatever you do, remember this: “Write (or fill in the blank for you) even if you’ll never get paid for it.” Greater than money is the satisfaction of knowing that you are doing what you were born to do.
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I haven’t blogged for a week or so. I’ve been quite busy with getting some things in order in my life. But, not writing, hurts. I read somewhere recently, an excellent statement regarding writers. I can’t remember where I read it, but it was from a man who said that it is more painful for a writer not to write than it is trying to find something to write about.
No truer words.
A writer never needs to find something to write about, as a writer simply is….and does. All he or she has to do is look around them and material awaits them.
As much as I speak and teach about purpose to others, and as I encourage them to do and be what they are destined to do, I still find myself growing into my own identity. I know my purpose, but it seems that God shows it to me consistently. He underscores who and what I am in many ways. I am sure that He’s not doing this to prove to Himself any of this, but He does so to show me. This reminds me of a devotional I read this week about the “tests” that come in our lives. God allows testing to come. In fact, He may write and produce the test Himself, yet He doesn’t do so for Himself. He knows what we’re made of and what’s inside of us. He knows because He placed it there. But, we don’t always know and we have to go through tests so that we not only know who we are, but most importantly, who HE is! It is through our tests that we become like tea bags. Stronger when we’re placed in hot water!
This identity thing has been tapping in my heart over the last few weeks. I’m seeing where in today’s high tech and money-driven world where many people are doing things and affixing titles to themselves that will allow them to make the most money. Trust me, I’m not against money, as we all need it. But, I have a problem when people do things just for the money. Actually, more power to them if they can, but it doesn’t please me when they suddenly become, let’s say a writer for example, because to have a book to sell means money (in their minds) and will move their products. To me, that tears the integrity of what a writer is. True, in this day and age, ANYBODY……..absolutely anybody can publish a book, call themselves an author, and promote themselves as such. Yet, there is no heart in their work. It’s only words on paper for one purpose…….to make money. Again, I am not against anyone making an income. Do so, but do so sincerely. The success of a writer is not the number of books they’ve moved, or the amount of dollars they’ve made in sells. One level of success as a writer is determined by the amount of lives you’ve positively impacted, touched, and enriched, because of your gift.
Years ago, I attended a seminar and workshop at Southern University at New Orleans with guest speaker author Terry McMillan. This was before Stella Got Her Groove, yet after Disappearing Acts and Waiting to Exhale. She said a lot, but the one thing that remained with me was her encouragement to writers. She said that a true writer writes not from the motivation of money, but for the sheer love of doing so. They write because they cannot NOT write. They write because they have to write.
Many writers (myself included) never even share all that they write because it’s such an intimate part of them, they aren’t always willing or ready to share that with anyone. Therefore, they’re not writing to sell it to someone. They’re writing because a writer is who they are.
I feel bad that I haven’t blogged all week, but God has still allowed me and used me to write for His honor and glory. What I’ve written has caused me to study deeply, pray, and to be a mouthpiece for Him. This is what walking in my purpose is all about because it not only allowed me to empower, teach, and bless others, it has also helped me to become a better and stronger person.
Whatever a person’s purpose is, they know it. They cannot help themselves. They have to function in their capability. It may not be writing for you, but I will say this, whatever you do, remember this: “Write (or fill in the blank for you) even if you’ll never get paid for it.” Greater than money is the satisfaction of knowing that you are doing what you were born to do.
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Wednesday, June 04, 2008
STAND STILL - EVEN IN BATTLE!
Voice recording of this blog:
“Then the Spirit of the LORD came upon Jahaziel son of Zechariah…” 2 Chron 20:14a
He said: "Listen, King Jehoshaphat and all who live in Judah and Jerusalem! This is what the LORD says to you: 'Do not be afraid or discouraged because of this vast army. For the battle is not yours, but God's.
You will not have to fight this battle. Take up your positions; stand firm and see the deliverance the LORD will give you, O Judah and Jerusalem. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged. Go out to face them tomorrow, and the LORD will be with you.' " 2 Chronicles 20:15, 17 NIV
I feel a changing of the current. An air of transition in my life. God has brought me through a 6-month period of initiation. A time of preparation. Now I am hearing Him, and seeing Him, changing my course. As this has dawned on me, I couldn’t help but think of a ship as it sails on the ocean. I’m not a nautical person, and I know very little about marine life, but I know that before a ship turns…..or changes its course….it has to slow down to make the turn. It doesn’t just get to a point and suddenly shift.
I did a little reading on the sinking of the Titantic. Everything points to human error and the captain not heeding the warning signs of impending and possible danger. He, and everyone, rested on their laurels and the false conception that the Titantic was unsinkable. It doesn’t seem that they realized that even with something that seems unstoppable, smart leadership and guidance is still necessary. There are outside forces that also played a huge part in the destruction of that vessel.
The captain was warned of other icebergs, yet he remained on the same destructive path. He never slowed the ship down to review the matter, or to prepare to change its course. As a result, it was too late when they came upon the iceberg that brought them down. It was too late to change direction. The iceberg tore through the lauded vessel.
I feel God changing my own course at this juncture in life.
There are a lot of changes God has brought to pass over the last 6 months for me. Some good, some not so good, but all are in His hand. There are some things that I will be doing differently, as I am feeling myself being propelled to soar to the next level. I will be stepping back and away from some things. I will be focusing deeper on accomplishing more in a strange way….by doing less. I will be giving away less of myself, and thus I will be able to give more of myself. I will not be saying as much, but as a result, I will have more to say.
To get to where I need to be, I am aware that I am in a battle. I’ve been in a battle, in fact, but today I finally hear what God is saying to me. He promised to take care of me, to provide for me, and to allow me to do what He’s called me to. I’ve been working trying to get there, but today He’s saying to me to be still. Not only to be still, but to STAND still. As this battle is not mine, it’s His. He tells me that He will fight the battle, and to stand firm and see His deliverance. Not only that, once more He says not to be afraid (I’m told that the term “don’t be afraid” is in the Bible 365 times – I have not researched it myself yet, but hey….).
This battle is not mine and as I begin to STAND still, He can change the course and I don’t have to worry about any iceberg tearing me apart. God is with me!
Carla
“Then the Spirit of the LORD came upon Jahaziel son of Zechariah…” 2 Chron 20:14a
He said: "Listen, King Jehoshaphat and all who live in Judah and Jerusalem! This is what the LORD says to you: 'Do not be afraid or discouraged because of this vast army. For the battle is not yours, but God's.
You will not have to fight this battle. Take up your positions; stand firm and see the deliverance the LORD will give you, O Judah and Jerusalem. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged. Go out to face them tomorrow, and the LORD will be with you.' " 2 Chronicles 20:15, 17 NIV
I feel a changing of the current. An air of transition in my life. God has brought me through a 6-month period of initiation. A time of preparation. Now I am hearing Him, and seeing Him, changing my course. As this has dawned on me, I couldn’t help but think of a ship as it sails on the ocean. I’m not a nautical person, and I know very little about marine life, but I know that before a ship turns…..or changes its course….it has to slow down to make the turn. It doesn’t just get to a point and suddenly shift.
I did a little reading on the sinking of the Titantic. Everything points to human error and the captain not heeding the warning signs of impending and possible danger. He, and everyone, rested on their laurels and the false conception that the Titantic was unsinkable. It doesn’t seem that they realized that even with something that seems unstoppable, smart leadership and guidance is still necessary. There are outside forces that also played a huge part in the destruction of that vessel.
The captain was warned of other icebergs, yet he remained on the same destructive path. He never slowed the ship down to review the matter, or to prepare to change its course. As a result, it was too late when they came upon the iceberg that brought them down. It was too late to change direction. The iceberg tore through the lauded vessel.
I feel God changing my own course at this juncture in life.
There are a lot of changes God has brought to pass over the last 6 months for me. Some good, some not so good, but all are in His hand. There are some things that I will be doing differently, as I am feeling myself being propelled to soar to the next level. I will be stepping back and away from some things. I will be focusing deeper on accomplishing more in a strange way….by doing less. I will be giving away less of myself, and thus I will be able to give more of myself. I will not be saying as much, but as a result, I will have more to say.
To get to where I need to be, I am aware that I am in a battle. I’ve been in a battle, in fact, but today I finally hear what God is saying to me. He promised to take care of me, to provide for me, and to allow me to do what He’s called me to. I’ve been working trying to get there, but today He’s saying to me to be still. Not only to be still, but to STAND still. As this battle is not mine, it’s His. He tells me that He will fight the battle, and to stand firm and see His deliverance. Not only that, once more He says not to be afraid (I’m told that the term “don’t be afraid” is in the Bible 365 times – I have not researched it myself yet, but hey….).
This battle is not mine and as I begin to STAND still, He can change the course and I don’t have to worry about any iceberg tearing me apart. God is with me!
Carla
Historical Day - FINALLY!
My high school's graduating class of 1979 motto was taken from a speech of the Rev. Jesse Jackson: "If you can conceive it, and believe it, you can achieve it." Barack Obama is the manifestation of this concept for us as a people. Nearly 30 years later, we are seeing what so many have fought, bled, and died for. I only wish that my parents were still alive to see this remarkable day.
Praising God!
Carla
Praising God!
Carla
Tuesday, June 03, 2008
Monday, June 02, 2008
FEED MY SHEEP
To listen to my voice recording of this blog, click the following. Note, that they are done in 2 parts.
FEED MY SHEEP
By Carla Y. Nix
“He said to him the third time, "Simon, son of John, do you love me?" Peter was grieved because he said to him the third time, "Do you love me?" and he said to him, "Lord, you know everything; you know that I love you." Jesus said to him, "Feed my sheep.” ~ John 21:17
I watched a commercial recently that made me smile. During a video phone call home, a grown military son was asked by his mother if he were eating correctly. She said that he looked a little thin. He smiled and lovingly said that he was eating and that her question was a “mother” question.
He’s darned tooting! A mother question indeed. My 23 year old son lives in Charlotte, NC. He has lived on his own for 2 years now. I still ask the mother question. In fact, his birthday was just the other day, and as I spoke to him on the phone to wish him a happy birthday, as always, I asked “what did you eat today?”
My 21 year old daughter is a college student who lives on campus in another city. We talk practically every day on the phone, and yep……every single time, I ask her the same……..”what did you eat today?”
My youngest child is 10 years old. Every single day I ask her what did she eat for breakfast and lunch at school.
As a mother, it is my nurturing nature that keeps me concerned about my children’s nutrition. It is something that began from their birth. It is vital for a baby to receive good, nutritious food in order for them to thrive and grow. Mothers know exactly what goes into their children’s bodies when they’re babies and as they grow. It’s our business, and our responsibility. Nobody in their right mind would purposely starve a child. So, even as my children have grown, I am still concerned about their nutrition.
When they were babies, I sterilized their bottles, mixed and measured their formula and fed them what they required and needed. I breastfed one of my children, and the difference was that there is no measuring of the milk. You really can’t tell how much the child is taking in. However, the key for knowing that they’re receiving the proper amount is by their development. They will gain weight and thrive well. Also, on a daily note, you know by their out-take. If nothing goes in, nothing will come out (count the diapers!).
Bottomline is that there will be evidence of the child’s nourishment one way or another whether they’re breastfed or bottle fed. There will be growth. The child will thrive.
The importance of proper nutrition doesn’t change just because we grow older. We should eat well, and eat correctly. When we don’t, then our bodies suffer for it.
Our spiritual diet and intake is just as important, if not moreso, than the physical. What we feast on in the spiritual realm is what develops our growth and development in the Lord.
God cares about our diet. I can imagine if we sat down and talked to God, on our spiritual phone, He would ask us what did we eat today. He is concerned about our spiritual nutrition. In fact, He provides for us.
Psalm 23:5 – “Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over.”
In reading “A Shepherd Looks at Psalm 23” by Phillip Keller, he breaks down the entire 23rd Psalm from the perspective and experience of a real life Shepherd. Regarding verse 5, Keller points out what “preparing a table” for a Shepherd means. As we know, David, who wrote this particular Psalm, was a Shepherd. David first recognizes the Lord as our Shepherd (Psalm 23:1). Keller says that much work goes into preparing a table for the sheep. It means, preparing an area of the pasture for the sheep that would allow them to eat properly. Months before the sheep enter the pasture, the Shepherd goes and remove the plants that are harmful for the sheep. Keller points out that this means that the poisonous plants are plucked up so that the sheep would not graze on them. The Shepherd does this for the survival of the sheep. He removes all things that are not good for them, so that they may be able to eat in order to grow and thrive.
The Shepherd also “keep an eye out for predators.” He watches for wolves, coyotes, cougars, and bears, for example. These predators often watch every movement of the sheep, hoping for a chance to make a sneak attack on them. While they’re grazing and eating, they are vulnerable to the attack of the enemy and are easy prey.
But, the attentive Shepherd watches out for them.
The Christian is likened to sheep, and the Lord is the Good Shepherd. Keller says, “The parallel in the Christian life is clear. Like sheep, we somehow feel that we have to try everything that comes our way. We have to taste this thing and that, sampling everything just to see what it’s like. And we may very well know that some things are deadly. They can do us no good. They can be most destructive. Still somehow we give them a whirl anyway.”
He emphasized that we should remember that our Master……..our loving Shepherd has been there ahead of us……taking care of our situations before we even arrive to them. He has already removed the poisonous plants that we may ingest. He has already defeated our enemy who wishes to harm us.
Remember, Jesus warned Peter that satan desired to tempt him and sift him like wheat.
“And the Lord said, Simon, Simon, behold, Satan hath desired to have you, that he may sift you as wheat: But I have prayed for thee, that thy faith fail not: and when thou art converted, strengthen thy brethren.” ~Luke 22:31-32
Jesus prepared the way, by having already prayed for him. Jesus also told Peter to strengthen others once he repents. See, Jesus knew what was ahead. Peter would deny Him three times. This would be a mistake that would undoubtedly turn Peter around.
The Lord cares about us and what we feast upon. After Jesus’ resurrection, He appeared several times to His disciples before His ascension back to heaven. On the third encounter, Jesus first cared about their physical need for food. It was early in the morning, and they’d been fishing all night, yet did not catch anything to eat. When Jesus appeared to them, He told them to cast their nets to the right side of the boat. They obeyed, and yet another miracle occurred. They pulled in about 153 fish and they had a hard time pulling up the net because it was so heavy. Not only that, as they walked inland, the Lord had already prepared a coal fire with fish awaiting them to be cooked and eaten. They ate that morning, and they ate well. After they feasted on such a wonderful meal, Jesus asked Peter three times if he loved him. Peter got a little aggravated with the questioning, but said, that yes, he loved him. Jesus thus said that if you love me, feed my sheep.
For those whom God has called with the gifts of teaching, preaching, and leading, it is imperative to remember that you have an awesome responsibility. You have been given the stewardship of feeding the Lord’s sheep. His precious sheep. Feeding them with the Word. Feeding them with the truth. Feeding them with good nutritional food that will cause them to grow and develop fully as God would have them to.
Junk food isn’t good for anyone. It may taste good, but it isn’t good for us. Don’t throw junk at God’s people. Don’t feed them trash and cause them malnutrition. Feed them the wholesome Word of God. Teach people how to live holy lives in an unholy world. Don’t fleece the people. Don’t shake them up nor mislead them. Build people up, don’t tear them down. Love God enough to love His people. In doing so, you would do just as He instructed Peter to do – Feed His Sheep!
Suggested reading:
“A Shepherd Looks at Psalm 23” By Phillip Keller
FEED MY SHEEP
By Carla Y. Nix
“He said to him the third time, "Simon, son of John, do you love me?" Peter was grieved because he said to him the third time, "Do you love me?" and he said to him, "Lord, you know everything; you know that I love you." Jesus said to him, "Feed my sheep.” ~ John 21:17
I watched a commercial recently that made me smile. During a video phone call home, a grown military son was asked by his mother if he were eating correctly. She said that he looked a little thin. He smiled and lovingly said that he was eating and that her question was a “mother” question.
He’s darned tooting! A mother question indeed. My 23 year old son lives in Charlotte, NC. He has lived on his own for 2 years now. I still ask the mother question. In fact, his birthday was just the other day, and as I spoke to him on the phone to wish him a happy birthday, as always, I asked “what did you eat today?”
My 21 year old daughter is a college student who lives on campus in another city. We talk practically every day on the phone, and yep……every single time, I ask her the same……..”what did you eat today?”
My youngest child is 10 years old. Every single day I ask her what did she eat for breakfast and lunch at school.
As a mother, it is my nurturing nature that keeps me concerned about my children’s nutrition. It is something that began from their birth. It is vital for a baby to receive good, nutritious food in order for them to thrive and grow. Mothers know exactly what goes into their children’s bodies when they’re babies and as they grow. It’s our business, and our responsibility. Nobody in their right mind would purposely starve a child. So, even as my children have grown, I am still concerned about their nutrition.
When they were babies, I sterilized their bottles, mixed and measured their formula and fed them what they required and needed. I breastfed one of my children, and the difference was that there is no measuring of the milk. You really can’t tell how much the child is taking in. However, the key for knowing that they’re receiving the proper amount is by their development. They will gain weight and thrive well. Also, on a daily note, you know by their out-take. If nothing goes in, nothing will come out (count the diapers!).
Bottomline is that there will be evidence of the child’s nourishment one way or another whether they’re breastfed or bottle fed. There will be growth. The child will thrive.
The importance of proper nutrition doesn’t change just because we grow older. We should eat well, and eat correctly. When we don’t, then our bodies suffer for it.
Our spiritual diet and intake is just as important, if not moreso, than the physical. What we feast on in the spiritual realm is what develops our growth and development in the Lord.
God cares about our diet. I can imagine if we sat down and talked to God, on our spiritual phone, He would ask us what did we eat today. He is concerned about our spiritual nutrition. In fact, He provides for us.
Psalm 23:5 – “Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over.”
In reading “A Shepherd Looks at Psalm 23” by Phillip Keller, he breaks down the entire 23rd Psalm from the perspective and experience of a real life Shepherd. Regarding verse 5, Keller points out what “preparing a table” for a Shepherd means. As we know, David, who wrote this particular Psalm, was a Shepherd. David first recognizes the Lord as our Shepherd (Psalm 23:1). Keller says that much work goes into preparing a table for the sheep. It means, preparing an area of the pasture for the sheep that would allow them to eat properly. Months before the sheep enter the pasture, the Shepherd goes and remove the plants that are harmful for the sheep. Keller points out that this means that the poisonous plants are plucked up so that the sheep would not graze on them. The Shepherd does this for the survival of the sheep. He removes all things that are not good for them, so that they may be able to eat in order to grow and thrive.
The Shepherd also “keep an eye out for predators.” He watches for wolves, coyotes, cougars, and bears, for example. These predators often watch every movement of the sheep, hoping for a chance to make a sneak attack on them. While they’re grazing and eating, they are vulnerable to the attack of the enemy and are easy prey.
But, the attentive Shepherd watches out for them.
The Christian is likened to sheep, and the Lord is the Good Shepherd. Keller says, “The parallel in the Christian life is clear. Like sheep, we somehow feel that we have to try everything that comes our way. We have to taste this thing and that, sampling everything just to see what it’s like. And we may very well know that some things are deadly. They can do us no good. They can be most destructive. Still somehow we give them a whirl anyway.”
He emphasized that we should remember that our Master……..our loving Shepherd has been there ahead of us……taking care of our situations before we even arrive to them. He has already removed the poisonous plants that we may ingest. He has already defeated our enemy who wishes to harm us.
Remember, Jesus warned Peter that satan desired to tempt him and sift him like wheat.
“And the Lord said, Simon, Simon, behold, Satan hath desired to have you, that he may sift you as wheat: But I have prayed for thee, that thy faith fail not: and when thou art converted, strengthen thy brethren.” ~Luke 22:31-32
Jesus prepared the way, by having already prayed for him. Jesus also told Peter to strengthen others once he repents. See, Jesus knew what was ahead. Peter would deny Him three times. This would be a mistake that would undoubtedly turn Peter around.
The Lord cares about us and what we feast upon. After Jesus’ resurrection, He appeared several times to His disciples before His ascension back to heaven. On the third encounter, Jesus first cared about their physical need for food. It was early in the morning, and they’d been fishing all night, yet did not catch anything to eat. When Jesus appeared to them, He told them to cast their nets to the right side of the boat. They obeyed, and yet another miracle occurred. They pulled in about 153 fish and they had a hard time pulling up the net because it was so heavy. Not only that, as they walked inland, the Lord had already prepared a coal fire with fish awaiting them to be cooked and eaten. They ate that morning, and they ate well. After they feasted on such a wonderful meal, Jesus asked Peter three times if he loved him. Peter got a little aggravated with the questioning, but said, that yes, he loved him. Jesus thus said that if you love me, feed my sheep.
For those whom God has called with the gifts of teaching, preaching, and leading, it is imperative to remember that you have an awesome responsibility. You have been given the stewardship of feeding the Lord’s sheep. His precious sheep. Feeding them with the Word. Feeding them with the truth. Feeding them with good nutritional food that will cause them to grow and develop fully as God would have them to.
Junk food isn’t good for anyone. It may taste good, but it isn’t good for us. Don’t throw junk at God’s people. Don’t feed them trash and cause them malnutrition. Feed them the wholesome Word of God. Teach people how to live holy lives in an unholy world. Don’t fleece the people. Don’t shake them up nor mislead them. Build people up, don’t tear them down. Love God enough to love His people. In doing so, you would do just as He instructed Peter to do – Feed His Sheep!
Suggested reading:
“A Shepherd Looks at Psalm 23” By Phillip Keller
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